Yesterday at work i experienced something that doesn’t happen to me every day for me.
There is a woman that has come in a few times to pay her credit card bill. I always thought there was something strange about her, but i was wrong. Out of foolishness i was judging her. When she comes in she always has something to tell me, usually its about how she’s doing, what she did that day, stuff like that. Well the more she came in the more appealing she became to me. Today when she came in she was talking about a movie she had just seen. It was a debate kind of movie about Creationism and Evolution. As she was talking I began to realize how i had been judging her this whole time and little did I know, she was a believer, not only that, but she is a very kind and thoughtful woman. Anyway, she was talking about how the evolutionists in the movie were so dead set on it they wouldn’t open their eyes to the truth. Then she began to talk about how their hearts were hardened. Right then I began to realize how my own heart has hardened. Since all that has happened in the last few years, i have hardened my heart to the Lord. Not letting him in and completely removing him from my life. Since my bother passes away ill I’ve had is anger towards God. She continued to talk and i continued to listen. The more i listened the more she touched me. By the way, this whole time she’s talking to me, she has no idea i’m a believer.
The last thing i’m going to tell you about is when she was talking about how its easier to deny it then to have faith in God. Which is so true! Everyday is a constant battle. Everyday its harder to be consistent in your walk with God.
You are the strongest person i know. One thing I will never forget is when we were in the hospital and we were in the bathroom and i asked you why God would be putting you through this. You just looked at me and said.. I gave all of you kids to The Lord a long time ago, and whatever he choses to do with you i have to deal with. All i could do was wrap my arms around you and cry my eyes out. I couldn’t believe you were so strong! I know i definitely haven’t been as strong as you. 
